Blind Faith
Turned up side down, thrown into disorder, blind and lost in a big world that took slow sips of my body and would never give me a break. After my father passed away that is how I felt, as I am sure thousands of others have. From the time of the funereal to now, there has been such chaos flying at my family and me from all directions and the only way to get through it is to just fall and hope that somebody will catch you.
My faith helped carry me through all my times, good and bad. There are times when I would be completely down and out, not sure where to go in life, not sure how I would afford to get by, not sure why things never got any easier. I do not want to sound like I would demand things to be done for me, or sit around waiting for a miracle.
There is a great story that I have heard, and think about it all the time.
A man is drowning in the ocean. He looks up at the heavens and asks God to save him. Soon a row boat comes along and asks if he needs help. The man says
“no, God will save me”
The row boat leaves. Next a yacht comes by. Same thing, the yachts caption asks the drowning man if he needs help.
“no, God will save me”
After the yacht leaves, one more ship comes by, it is a Navy boat. The Navy asks the drowning man if he needs help.
“no, God will save me”
The Navy leaves. No more boats come by and the man drowns.
At heavens gate the drowning man asks God why he did not save him. God replied..
“I sent you three boats”
I love this story; it shows how people ask God for help in life. But they never know when their help has arrived because they are waiting for the big answer that will help all their problems, a giant sign. Like the drowning man waiting for a sign from God that he would be saved. , because three boats where not what he was expecting, he wanted for light to come down and save him, the boats where the light.
I have lived my life in blind faith; part of where I am going is to know where I have come from. I look at how far I have made it. Is the path I walk paved with gold? No, the path I walk on is covered in vines that I get caught in and thorns that I get cut on. On the same path there are also flowers that I take the time to smell and I know that as long as I don’t stop walking, I will be able to reach a part of the path where it is cleared out and I am covered by the leaves to stay safe and dry and walk on a compacted ground that is stable and firm to rest on.
I swear that I have been kicked around from close friends, or people i thought were close friends to bill collectors, to school, to the everyday pains of life that take its toll on you. But if you keep your head up and your eyes open, there is a answer. You will have to work for it, but if you put the time in there will be the shining light on the other side.
